It was just so hard for me mentally to put my mouth on the part of his body I had seen pee and cum. xxx sex I can not tell you the exact date or the exact age I was the first time he did it but I do remember the odd, naughty feeling that would come to me when he would push my panties down. The only schooling I had after that was in sexuality. But he made me feel ashamed for telling him that and showed me with movies and TV that was how people love each other. I remember the first penetration of his tongue into my mouth. I think the involvement of others was one of the most degrading and emotionally difficult things for me. I cant forget the first time, feeling his hands on my knees forcing them to open so he could watch me pee. The first time it happened he had a male friend over to his trailer and made me undress for him. She would never tell me why but she never had any relationship with my biological father. My mother had never hit me and he never spanked me in a way I think some parents spank their children, more to scare them then to hurt them.
